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I am finding myself still putting thought into this band thing. I'm more comfortable with the fact that I am now in a "cover band', but I dread the bullshit I'm going to have to take from my other musician friends; they are soo gonna rag on me about this and tell me I should be doing original work. I can't argue with that, but the fact is it's not happening and I'm fucking sick of letting my kit collect dust in my living room while everyone else is out playing and having a good time. I should have been out there playing years ago and I'm sick of waiting for the "right time" to come along, so fuck em if they don't like it. At least that's what I want to say...

I just hope none of these said friends come to any of the shows, I'm not sure how I would react to that honestly and I'm a bit afraid I would feel embarrased about my own band, and that's just not fair to the other guys in the band. There's nothing wrong with being in a cover band and it can be alot of fun.

So why is this bothering me so bad? I'm in a band again, I get to play again, and I will get paid to do what I love to do and have done for years for free. What the hell is the problem? My stupid ego just wont let this go.

*sigh*